Tomorrow is a new day

Well I have started to make a promise to myself and I am going to start living it. I want to make sure that I try and live everyday as if it were my last and be PRESENT. I think for most of my life I have been living today to set myself up for something in the future instead of really enjoying everyday as it comes. I think now its more important then ever to live in the present because of Sophia. She is all ready growing up so fast and though I have been so blessed to be able to be a stay at home mom and see every big moment so far I feel like there are days where I am just looking forward to nap time or counting down till bed time instead of really enjoying the time I have with her. Some days are harder then others but my gosh she is such a love and so smart and just an awesome little person and I feel like I really need to focus on just hanging out with my baby girl. It won't be long until she no longer wants to hang out with me and watch a movie or read a book or color so I am going to make it a point to be present with her every single day.

Another aspect of my life that I want to be more present at is my marriage. Its not like we have a bad marriage, its actually great but I need to focus on communicating better and continuing to know Corey as we grow older and change as individuals. He is my best friend and the love of my life and I am not sure I make it known as much as a should just how much I love our life together. We have been through so much the past few months and it has made me realize just how much I have been missing by trying to plan for tomorrow instead of living for today. So from this day on I am going to find at least 5 things each day to be thankful for and am going to try and learn something new each and everyday. Somedays are harder then others but there is always something to learn and take away from those times. I am not going to forget about myself because I am the most important person in my life, if I am not good then I can't be good for anyone else. So my promise to myself is to be as healthy both mentally and physically as I possibly can. I am going to get down to my ideal weight, 10 lbs to go, but I am not going to diet just change what and how I eat good and I am going to get physical everyday wether it be the gym or dancing around the living room with Sophia. Most importantly I am going to get my mind healthy and start being more positive and keeping clarity. The main way is getting back to studying Buddhist philosophy which will also help with me being present. I for sure believe I have someone or something looking out for me so no longer I am going to take any day for granted. I have so much to be thankful for so now I am going to really try and enjoy it. I think everyone could take something out of being present. Life is short and has its ups and downs but boy its such an awesome journey that we are lucky to be on.