Vanity??!

So lately I have been getting some work done on my face, some needed and some wanted, and it got me to thinking of WHY I was getting it done.? I have gotten braces again to get the perfect teeth I have always wanted. I have gotten two moles removed on my face, on because I had to and the other because I have always wanted to. So on my road to get things to look "better" I look like a teenager with braces, a not so bad scar on my forehead and a healing cut on my cheek and everyday I go out feeling less then confident. So why am I getting this done? Its not like my face shows what kind of person I am and what qualities make me a good person and besides the mole on my forehead it wouldn't have been a problem going through the rest of my life with crooked teeth and a mole on my cheek. So in sitting down and really thinking about why I was doing this I came up with a few conclusions. The main one is I really don't feel good about myself anymore. I grew up always being the skinny one and I never had to worry about what I put into my mouth, then I graduated college and everything changed. I gained weight and was no longer told how good I looked and did not feel as good as I did before. So for the past 10 years or so I have been struggling to get back to an "acceptable" weight so I can hear I look good again. And most importantly why do I care? As women we put so much time and effort to be what is considered "acceptable" and we beat ourselves up for it and worst of all we put each other down and judge each other. So I have decided to change what I want people to think of me and what I want to think of myself. No longer am I going to worry about being the "pretty" one but I want to try and show who I really am. I started to think about what would happen if my face was burned in a fire and I was covered in scars, would I live the rest of my life feeling bad about myself because my face wasn't pretty? There is so much more to life and me then that. So I want to show that I am a good mom, a good wife and person who loves life. I no longer want to be a prisoner of constantly thinking about how much I weigh and worrying about what people think of me and start focusing how I can show who I really am without worrying about the outward appearance. I have no clue how I am going to do this but gosh darn it I am going to try. And in my self quest I am going to stop judging people because its so toxic and in turn I hope not to be judged. So that is my deep thought and question for the day, if we lost our face how can we show the world that we are a beautiful person?